Let me tell you a story, one that has been told before, but nevertheless, one that I will tell again and again, until its value and splendor reaches your inner soul.
It was 25 years ago, during a warm, sunny, happy Summer in Mission Viejo, California that someone unexpectedly came to visit me.
It was the spirit of a little boy.
I can see and feel it in my heart and mind, like it was yesterday. There I sat in my upstairs master bedroom bathroom, getting ready for what would be a fun day ahead, with my cute, first child, and 2 year old toddler, in our new, upscale home.
Instantly, out of nowhere, I felt a small boys Spirit right in front of me, on my right side, next to the glass shower door. The thoughts instantly came to me that it was time for my first born child to have a sibling. Who? That 'someone' next to me, wanted to join our family. I felt him....I could see him in my mind's eye. He was REAL!
Being so young, I couldn't describe what had just happened to me, until years later when I could look back on it, however I instantly knew it was time for a new person to be born into our family and I joyously and obediently moved forward with taking steps to bring this desire about.
So, soon after this Spiritual experience, that same day, when my husband came into our master bedroom I had a feeling of attraction, for him, sweep over me, like never before. I had always 'liked' my husband, and found him somewhat good looking, but I was never passionately attracted to him, so this was a strange, new, and unexpected feeling sweeping over me.
I immediately acted upon this new feeling being placed in my heart, with real genuine passion, and unexpected desire, and approached my husband and began to kiss him, with the intent to become intimate with him.
He had ALWAYS been 'all over me', phyically, ever since we had met, so I was sure he would be more than receptive to 'get it on' with me. Of course, this actually was the first time this passion was being initiated by me, and even I was surprised at my NEW feelings of attraction. WHERE had they come from? How would he react? I was sure he would be receptive.
Boy, was I quickly rejected!
My husbands immediate reaction was one of surprise. He gave me a weird look of "what's this about?" and instantly told me 'he wasn't interested'.
My heart sank! I felt incredible, real deep, rejection!!
I instantly closed down my heart, and knew I would NEVER try something like that again! EVER!! I was SO very hurt!
I had just been following my heart, and THIS was what I got??
So, I tried to shake it off, and later (casually and kindly) approached my husband with the idea of having another child? What did he think? How did he feel about this?
He was instantly against it!! He had NO interest in this idea!
But, our son needed a brother? Didn't he?
He didn't agree. He told me that baby Austin had overwhelmed him and that IF he ever agreed to another child, it would be YEARS from then.
It Didn't matter what I said, he was adamantly against it!! He wouldn't budge.
(I thought, 'HOW cruel'. When I married him, I knew he was an only child and very selfish and so I had been fine being the main caregiver of baby Austin, and of any children we were going to end up having. I did MOST of the work. I wasn't asking for myself. I just 'KNEW' it was time!)
Over the next few days, as I sadly pondered my plight, the Holy Ghost reminded me of what I had been taught all my life, that the Power of Prayer could accomplish ANYTHING!
What did I have to lose?
I had already been saying my prayers morning and night anyway. So, in private, without my husband knowing, over the next few months, I pleaded in prayer, with the heavens, to 'soften my husband's heart' to favor me with a child. To grant me heavens desires.... of adding a new sibling to our small family.
He knew nothing of my actions or pleadings! I said nothing.
Then about two months later, out of the blue, my husband says to me, "You know what?, I guess we could start 'trying' to have a new child".
I was in shock! My prayers had been answered, and I instantly had gained a testimony of the 'Power of Prayer'!
So, we began 'trying' to create a new child for our family. I was somewhat disappointed month after month that it was not happening. Had we missed our window of opportunity? WHY was I not getting pregnant??
Sure enough, right after the Holidays, I became pregnant with you, son, and I was super excited!!! Your due date was for the end of Sept. (finally)
I had a few complications with your pregnancy, however, two weeks late, you finally arrived.... and by miracles, prayers, and the power of the Priesthood of God, you and I both survived a rocky pregnancy, dangerous delivery and miraculous birth!
You truly were and are a miracle made by Heaven!
You must be someone VERY important to the Heavens! (??)
All I know, is that while you grew up, you sure had LOTS of genuine LOVE for me, your mom. You would write me the most special 'love' notes, all the time, while you were growing up.
You are quick to anger (little bit of a temper) ...but also quick to forgive... and move on.
I will miss you this 24th birthday....as always, just like I have for the past 13 birthdays ....since the day you walked out my door, and I have missed so much of your life.
My prayers these days are for your happiness, success, real Joy...and most importantly for your 'Spiritual Safety'.
In a world where it is so easy to lose ones soul, I pray that you never do.
Remember WHO you truly are,
WHERE you came from, and
WHO truly loves you....for real.
How ever late you are, you have not traveled beyond true love....
Have a special birthday, on your autumn day....this day of when you were physically born, with those you love and those who love you!
Blessings and Love sent your way, on this day, through this avenue here and through the one YOU taught me about and came through,