but. . . . Why?
Why would I actually desire 'Fear' in my life or world?
And WHO or WHAT is this God that I would 'fear'?
There are many forms of Gods. There are many Gods you could fear.
This early morning as I lay in my bed, thinking about my unfortunate missed opportunity of when asked, if I had "Any Questions" for a certain young person in Illinois. . . . and remembering how I was honest at that time and realized instantly that I had NO questions for this very confused person. . . . that I had indeed missed a rare opportunity to maybe help or somehow explain to this person just HOW MUCH I just cared about the welfare of this very deeply loved person.
I had NOT come prepared to 'actually speak to him'. It threw me off guard.
All I knew was that I was NOT 'suppose' to for SO long......and that because for soooo many years, I had been threatened NOT to......that this was NOT a reality for me up to that time, it had not been a real possibility. . . and I was convinced that this was NOT going to be my opportunity TO DO SO either! I was NOT prepared and I was later sad that I was not.
Sadly, I had little faith...and had came unprepared?
OR was it that my spirit knew that I was in the Devils den, and that arguing with the Devil was a mute point.
I suppose, if I had known beforehand, or had more faith. . . . I 'could have' had something heartfelt prepared?
Maybe I would have asked things like. . . .
"Have you been taught to 'respect' women, by your father?
"Do you have any 'respect' for your Mother?"
"Can you, at your inexperienced young age, comprehend the huge amount of deeply felt LOVE, that ONLY a suffering Mother can experience? Which she has for you?"
"Do you believe your Mother is here to really 'harm' you? or could her presence actions simply stem from her happiness to finally have the opportunity to actually see you and have any contact with you?"
Did you know? Do you know?. . . that it was your Father who had ATF show up at Gunther and Leni's house with guns when you were 3 and THEY were the ones to scar your memories with things you are now accusing others of?"
"And IF you do know this. . . are you now "knowingly" using this to actually HARM others. Something that could backfire on YOU some day and actually get YOU harmed. Something NO parent wishes on their flesh and blood.?"
Do you know this? can you even comprehend this? . . and are you willingly blaming others out of spite. . . so that you can NOW can harm someone who does NOT deserve this punishment?"
Questions that would hopefully get that person thinking. . .
Could these questions simply reveal the Monster this person had and has become?
A Monster, who a heartless parent could have gladly shaped this young person into. . .so as to 'punish' the one person the heartless parent maybe has a great bitter 'hatred' for? Is this even a thought possibility for that young person...would they even consider this a reality...even for a moment?
'Fully Knowing' that doing this damning act by a heartless parent (to that young person), would truly grieve the REAL and loving parent...who cares deeply with REAL love for the young person.. . . because it is only bringing eternal damnation for that lost soul and the heartless parent could care less and is ONLY interested in his own 'winning'.
They say misery loves company. . . .and in this case it couldn't be 'more truer'.
Or. . . .
Was this Fear of God (the unseen spiritual guidance) implemented in my life at that time and space in Illinois, actually a protection factor, protecting me from further damage from wicked demonic possessed persons wishing to do me harm?
So, again "WHY is the Fear of God, the Beginning of Wisdom???"
Could this Illinois trip (what I thought was a missed opportunity) actually be a 'great protection' for me, because I Feared a God within....and my fear of this God is what protected me in a deadly situation??
or did I miss a great opportunity? Was i my job to protect this person from themselves? (or is the unseen world have this responsibility) To do what I can not?
The next important question would be, "WHO is the God YOU or I worship?"
EVEN when you are convinced you are worshiping NO God...are you sure of this???
WHERE is this God (in your life) which you fear, leading you to? What is the end of YOUR road?? Can you see it? Do you know the end result?
Even atheists are worshiping a God (a religion) who or which teaches there is NO God.
An atheist, believes that there is no God. ... An agnostic is someone who believes human beings simply cannot know anything metaphysical.
Yet those who see with just MORE than their physical eyes, see much more ...so isn't the agnostic just merely 'blind' to his surroundings...and as such has a deep desire to be a biomolecular engineer so that they can prove to their inner soul that there is NO metaphysical world...ONLY to someday find out that there always was and always will be SUCH A DIMENSION??
. . . .and that is why we as a culture KNOW about the world of unseen things...things that took agnostic people 'instruments' to be able to see.
To be continued...