The year is 1995 and a new family member has just arrived at the 100 year old house of the Holler home in the quaint and quiet town of Manti, Utah....my joy was beyond description!
(p.s. these first few days of recovery after giving birth to Christian Jacob, is when my husband, at that time, came to me and told me that he had a 'vision' of God telling him to live Polygamy with my cousin Tammy Hatch. I was in SHOCK!
I cried and prayed, devastated, to God in private that day and told God, if it be thy will, I would be willing to do whatever my husband wanted BECAUSE I was in extreme gratitude for this special baby blessing I had JUST been given. I was too weak and humble to fight him on his request and agreed to go along with his desires. Weeks later we asked Tammy if she would like to be Bernds second wife and she and her two boys were invited to come live with us. She told us she would pray about it....and days after that she politely turned down Bernds request to be his second wife. I was very relieved and thankful. Disappointed, after this, Bernd wanted to then ask my single sister, Susanne, if she would be his second wife. Again, I politely agreed to go along with his request, out of respect, and again, after she was asked, she too turned down his request. She was not the least interested. She was flattered, however, it bugged her that he would do that to her sister, and found it strange.
Again, I was very relieved and grateful that we were not going to live this difficult, stressful, and strange lifestyle. Especially during a very vulnerable time in my life. Looking back, today, I see that Bernd was very selfish to take advantage of me at that time. Then over the next few years, after Jacob was born, Bernd would go on to look for sex in other women, due to his desires to find his desires fulfilled...or maybe for another soul mate, I assumed.....which unfortunately eventually broke our family up)
Sadly ,these things happen to even the best of families and I believe that both of us had NO ill intentions on hurting each other while we were still married. (...actually not me ever, even after my divorce)
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