I love him so much, but am so disappointed in him for being so bitter. angry and disrespectful towards me, his loving mother.
I pray that he makes wiser, and safer choices this year.
" . . . Yes, I felt devastated to have an alienated, (brainwashed by many lies) child. I was helpless as a mother. For the first time I could not protect my son, even on the day I was seeing him for the first time in years. And I felt a guilt that was overwhelming and defeating. I felt great hatred toward the Alienator, towards my son's new-found 'hatred' for me, and towards those who encouraged and supported his disrespectful, hell-bound attitude.
. . . .But when I released the negativity, faith replaced fear, love replaced hate, and patience replaced anger.
And finally I had hope—a hope born of faith, a hope born of understanding, a hope that still sustains me and whispers that one day my son (and sons) will overcome. . . .
But above all, I felt love—a deep, abiding love—for my son, for myself, and for the Lord. "