MERRY CHRISTMAS CHILDREN! Maybe next year we'll all be together!
I think about you many times a day everyday and I pray always that you will find the courage within your souls soon to step beyond those who fought to separate us in this life and come find the blessings I have waiting to share with you and that you will fight for your right to come visit or live with us! We especially missed you today and on all special days like today!
"those who lose their lives serving others will find themselves" was one of the fine messages in Church this Christmas day. Having lived life for many years not doing this while I lived with your dad Bernd, and then coming full circle back to a life of "giving" I have found this to be so TRUE!
I understand that some of you think that I am not that way because you saw me at my worst many days while I was in horrible and excruciating emotional pain after my divorce when your dad abandoned you and I and then many years after you all went to go live with your dad and he alienated you from me. I shared a lot (maybe too much?) with Austin when Bernd kept you from me (and the love and care I so desperately wanted to share, or I had to give you) and maybe that was wrong. I am sorry that Austin or anyone of you who may not know the deep, deep love I have for him and all of you. Hopefully one day you will.
Remember many people in your life will do things you will not understand or accept or like.
That is "why" the principal of Forgiveness, is so very important in YOUR life. NOT for the others around you...but for YOU. That way you can progress in life with Love in your heart and compassion coming back towards you when you make choices that others won't understand. Remember when you say that you "love" certain people in your life and yet "hate" others, you are simply lying to yourself. You can not have love in your heart and harbor feelings of hate also. Choose love.
I missed you very much today and love you from the depths of my soul. IF I could do more for you to bring you success and happiness I would and will do this for you!
MERRY CHRISTMAS! May Christ be in your lives always....