I heard your Mother, Lisa, made a great effort in time and money to go see you. Regretfully, it didn't turn out so good for either one of you. I am extending a welcome in the near future either to my home here in California or somewhere else where I can be there for you and help in a reconciliation with your Mother.
I know that times are tough and that you have had a difficult time in life in the absence of your Mother. It's ok that you turned to Terry (T) for support and consolation. However now you have grown and you are of legal age. It is time for you to reconcile your thoughts and feelings towards your Mother, Lisa.
Listen to your heart, and not to anyone else. Of course you may say that your heart has hatred for her, but I am here to tell you that your heart is the center of your soul where only God and the love of Jesus dwell. I am sure that you will benefit greatly from just simply having nice and friendly contact with your Mother. All good comes out of forgiveness, and love.
Believe me, she is not the only one that needs forgiveness. I do. You do, and well, you can imagine some of us in greater levels than others, but who are we to judge. We all know the quotes that are in the holy Bible and many scriptures throughout time. Just in case you are not aware of this; Jesus said "that we are all sinners" and that there is no greater sin.
So you see, who are we to judge, forgiveness and mercy are the key to life, and happiness and this creates spiritual contact with God who blesses us all. If you want to blame someone for all the tragedy that has existed in the lives of your mother and you, I'll make it clear for you, it is the Adversary (Satan). The prince of darkness (meaning hides the truth from us all). Father of all lies and confusion.
Please write me back, however, do not write me unless you can compose yourself and only remember the goodness and love I've always had for you. I still love you, but I do require respect.