I know your dad and brothers are all freaking out right now, wondering if I am going to contact you today! (lol) (how sad)
Finally, the day we can 'legally' contact each other without others demanding we don't.
However, dear son....seeing how you don't know me very well, I already know you don't want to, and will not for your own reasons, contact me anyway....so, I will leave you these special Birthday wishes right here.
(Where you will always know you can reach me, and find love, without the negative whiplash of others, I hope and pray.)
* It was bright and early, on this very day, just 18 years ago, just a few miles from where I am now, that I began having contractions, indicating that you were ready to enter this world. It had been a nice, not too uncomfortable, 9 months I had carried you, close to my heart, and you were now coming only a day or so from your exact due date. Excitement was in the air. I had a Mid-wife (Karen) and her assistants, all ready to go for this Special day of yours (and mine).
I was so excited, and thankful that I would have a long summer day to slowly deliver you into this world and my home....and into our Jacuzzi Spa, no less. I was very blessed!
We had to put fresh water into our Jacuzzi tub and warm it up to perfection, for me to be able to labor, with you, in. We had all morning and afternoon to do this, because you didn't come out to greet us until late in the evening, of this same day!
As soon as you did, we took you right out of the water and held you tight. I was given herbs to help shrink my placenta and finish the delivery. My midwife was kind, intelligent and inspired! I couldn't have asked for a more knowledgeable helper. Her assistant, Karen also, was compassionate and very helpful too.
I immediately came out of the tub, to lay on the floor of this beautiful cedar lined room. LOTS of fresh towels were ready for you and I. I cuddled you and you began to suckle immediately, to help release the placenta. This whole process could not have gone more smoothly and heavenly. YOU truly were an angel being placed in my arms and home. You were calm, happy and content. You were the Perfect 5th baby. You looked so much like Jacob, your older brother...it felt like I was giving birth to the same baby I had just delivered a mere two years earlier. Lots of things were the same as the previous birth because it was such a fantastic way to deliver...but now, you were my new, special and unique baby boy...my Andrew Sterling Holler.
So, Andrew, have a nice evening with your family and friends. Know that I am thinking of you ALL DAY, and praying that you are happy, healthy, and safe.
Love, forever, Mom