I don't know 'why', (or what God's intent is). . . other than I feel it could be so that my children someday see that as much as I was wrongfully treated, cheated on, saddened, angry, hurt, had them brainwashed of many lies about me over many decades and their father has worked (and still works) against me and my success as a loving parent and good person, that to this day I never did 'rip' up my photos of my past which included their father.
I am not a revengeful person, so I suppose this page will hopefully show my children that I always have hope in others, that I have forgiven their dad, and that unlike him who did and does rip up all the photos (or anything resembling me) he had of me, from the day I asked if we could be separated for a time to this day, that instead I have kept mine here at home for them to be able to see and enjoy one day when they ask.
I suppose mainly because (through my hopeful eyes) I do not feel I should see their father as a 'mistake' or bad person - even if he has made many 'poor choices', or makes bad/hurtful/selfish and destructive choices which hurt others throughout his life.
That maybe our short union was just what we both needed to progress in our maturity...and had a purpose to bring these bright children into this world
I believe that if we don't understand this, or learn from this, or accept this as the case and move on, we become damned and will have to go back and do it again and again in the eternities of learning and growing until we learn and grow.
Even if there is no doubt in my mind that their fathers character or choices fits that of a Sociopath which is described as one who will NEVER admit that there is something 'wrong' with their destructive/selfish traits.... having hope gives me a different view of him.... that maybe (hopefully) he just fell into doing 'wrong' or hurtful things out of his bitterness and need to 'win' ...which (through his lack of willingness to see) he can not control.
I believe being a very selfish only child who always got his way and used people for what he wanted verses what was for the 'benefit and good of all', which God wants and Society teaches, that in our case because he had made major mistakes in our marriage and then could not have 'his' way in life afterwards.. that maybe his lesson in life is to someday (hopefully) 'let go of his need to win' and instead allow God to guide his life, like I and most of society does... and treat others the way you would like others to treat you.
(The Golden Rule) Just my thoughts...
Regardless of reasons and explanations, I hope my children see that they are not a mistake and that my marriage with their dad had a 'purpose' and some goodness and that I choose to focus on that!
That hopefully my progression with their dad in my early life was a good thing for both of us to be able to bring them into this world and hopefully they will learn to bring selfless 'good' to many people in their lives.
Either way, feel free to go to the tab above to find this page of photos, OR just click on this link below, to get to this new added photo page.
(Note: I will be adding more and more photos of my children's father to this page throughout the years as I find them, or run across them and have time to download them..
. . . .ENJOY my Holler boys)