These are the last two pages in this family album #6, and they are full of more of our Christmas family parties we had with Oma and Opa, our little family, and our friends this year of 1998!
A special and adorable family photo was taken of us on one of these fun nights, in front of our gas fireplace, there in our home in St. George Utah. It appears that Oma or Opa took the picture.
I love this photo of us. One of my favorites!! ♥ ♥ ♥
We were happy at this time. We thought our Doctor had told us the truth about Bernds vas, and that 5 active young boys (one in Heaven) would be the end of adding more in this big family of ours.
It was perfect in my mind.
(who knows what Bernd really thought as I later found out that he was NOT always honest with me the entire time I had known him)
Quiet, and happy Andrew made a perfect last child in our family of all amazing energetic boys. Although our marriage was slipping through the cracks, ever since we let go of the righteous and guiding LDS faith and anchor, ...I turned my focus entirely to raising the one true eternal love I had at the time...my precious gifts from God, my children!
**God had another plan, unbeknownst to us! (Ha) Since neither Bernd or I had the courage or strength to stand up for what was right, God would soon send our warrior Angel Alexander to divide that which was NOT spiritually meant to be together! Oh boy!! ;) we were in for it....lol. (I say this in a funny and loving way, because in my heart, ALL children were gifts from God and I personally trusted that God knew better than I did. Now I see why Alex had to come and I am Eternally grateful for him and am SO happy he came to our family and to Earth. He is so awesome!!)
Bernds company was doing very well, and St. George was a perfect place to raise children. We loved it there!!
(it really IS a great place to live, overall)
I was doing my best to keep our family together and wholesome, in spite of my husband starting to do things that were opposite of being a righteous family. (more worldly choices which he had seen his parents make and was raised with, but swore to me he would never do when we met.) Maybe he just did not know better I would tell myself? I know he did, though. Sadly, I did, but did not have the courage to stand up to what was right...or didn't have the will when seeing how spoiled I was becoming. I was so torn because of my security with 5 boys.
(Deep down things were not so perfect, but outwardly it was a great time in our lives this Christmas and over the next year or two. Outwardly we were a very happy family.
My main focus was on raising my children successfully. I gave it my all. They were my world and PRIDE and JOY. We did have some fun times together, around this time in our lives. VERY fun times! However, life is so much deeper than what you see on the outside or surface.)
Below this first page, you see a few more pictures of my young children opening up their gifts this night, from Oma and Opa Holler during our pre-Christmas party. Fun evening for sure!!
That evening we invited our friends, the Demarquessa's, and their daughter, over to our house for a small Christmas get together.