Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light
Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one
Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always
Thou and Thou only, be first in my heart
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art
High King of Heaven, my victory won
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heav’n’s Sun
Heart of my own heart, whate’er befall
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all
Be Thou My Vision...
Sung by the Latter Day Saint sisters, Elenyi
Merry Christmas, Sons!
Why? Because at this time...no matter how 'atheist' you tell yourself you are...you come from a long line of ancestors who KNOW and LOVE the real Christ!
Even Leni Holler had a great love for her savior Jesus Christ and often had a painting of him hanging on her wall in her home and attended Church with her friends for many years of her life.
Yes, the Hollers and the Hatch's love the Savior Jesus Christ and KNOW that he is real and loves us deeply! Even if you fall away from WHO you really are for a short time...you can't deny your bloodline!
You too can easily have His Spirit with you, by inviting this REAL power into your lives and hearts NOT ONLY on Christmas when the whole world tries to do it for a few weeks...but EVERYDAY...as a constant companion to guide you through this perilous life.
By being baptized, Austin, Jordan, Jacob, and Alexander, as most of you have been (with real priesthood power) you already promised to invite the Holy Ghost as your constant companion...sometimes you just need to be reminded that this 'special privilege' is yours ALREADY!
Your brother Alexander is doing this for a year now, and finding the greatest JOY and PEACE and LOVE he has ever felt in his entire life! He tells us this EVERY week!! WHY can't you??
He is beginning to express every week HOW MUCH he is finding incredible JOY in his short life of 'service', so far.
It is NOT limited to ONLY him...this could be yours...if you ONLY believed in yourself and REMEMBER.
I have even, as I have every year, had the great hope that just ONE of you will give me your address, or a PO Box... so that I can send you a big box of lovely Christmas (OR Birthday) items, full of love, so as to show you that I care, since none of you will allow me to physically or emotionally show you how much a deeply care without fearing the backlash. I'm so sorry :(
People are MORE important than things...but if this is ALL you will accept in your lives...I guess it is better than nothing. Right?
I know you can't think like a parent yet...but could you love yourself enough to find respect for others?
These small tokens from your real heartfelt parent are always bought or kept here at home, instead, every year, even when you refuse them.
They're YOURS, even if you don't believe it.
I can't guarantee that I am the perfect parent...NO ONE can...but I do try my best with my VERY limited resources to be the BEST mom and daughter of God that I can.
I know I fall short. I see many other mothers MUCH more bold, brave, blessed and beautiful than me. I'm sorry sons, that I fall short!!
This year, since I 'thought' that some of you were actually were maturing and forgiving...I even already have bought EACH ONE OF YOU, a big box of Holiday goodies and they are all here waiting to be mailed ASAP...but alas, some of you insisted that the one avenue I had to send things to you cut off that contact too.
One or more of you made sure that I don't even have ONE address to send you YOUR amazing gifts! I understand you've all moved to new locations.
Yes, it is sad for me...but really YOU are the ones growing and deserving of kind gestures, which you still refuse!
(sure you can tell yourself that you DON'T need anything...but can you really tell yourself or others that your lack of Respect to your caring and loving biological Mother, makes you such an awesome, good and/or cool young man? think about this for a few minutes...let that sink in....)
Let's see HOW many of your true friends and close relationships you have today, 'actually and honestly' "Respect" YOU for being that way to your humble, and loving biological mother who is just asking for a chance to be in your lives.
Ask your dad Bernd Holler how far in life this attitude got him!
This IS the time of year to actually (A CHANCE for people like all of us), to actually search our hearts (if they haven't already turned to ice and bitter) and find LOVE there.
Love and forgiveness!
Love that you can share to others, not just those you owe your lives to. Others who are a part of your lives...and I'm sorry....that includes me...no matter WHAT you tell yourselves....trust me you did NOT give birth to and raise yourselves alone!!
You didn't NOT come out of thin air.
Some of you have said ..."we have LOVE in our hearts...just NOT for you Lisa!"
Really....do you really think that is how LOVE works??
Little do you know, I am NOT 'Lisa' to you. You do NOT change anything by calling me "Lisa" other than lowering YOURSELVES.
I never will be Lisa to you.
Spiritually I may be 'your sister' and that I can accept, but I will never 'NOT' be your mother, for the simple fact that I gave birth to 'you' and raised you, not the other way around.
You can NOT go back in time and change it.
You are welcome to call me mom, or Mrs. Acosta, but I believe and know that I will always be your 'Mother' ...even if you lived to be 912.
Don't you know that to love one and hate another is a LIE?
It can't be done.
If you can NOT even LOVE the mother who gave you birth, was an awesome mother, who makes mistakes in your eyes...
who brought YOU into this world,
who you are half her DNA, and who sacrificed so much of her life to make you WHO you are TODAY...
then you LOVE NO ONE!!! Not even yourself!!!
Trust me, it is a physical, mental and spiritual impossibility to have real love in your heart and then NOT to love ALL.
This time of year gives you the chance to FORGIVE others because you DO NOT know their ways, abilities, or reasons why they did or said the things they did or do.
How can you? if you are MUCH younger and haven't lived life as much as or as long as many others?
EVEN if you think or feel you do...this is the opportunity to look beyond that and forgive them AND actually YOURSELF.
With everyone doing this around you now ...this is the time of year when great PEACE is felt and experienced.
Why NOT you?
What an incredible opportunity!!!
Again, I am not perfect in my choices and understandings...and either are you!
When you finally understand this...LOVE can come pouring into your hearts! Even for parents who make mistakes.
You may not see it now...but even your dad, Bernd has made HUGE mistakes that have damning eternal consequences. Pray for him.
and remember that THE greatest gift of all was what 'Christ' gave us.....
not only opening the door to get us out of 'Spiritual Death'
(which you don't even understand right now)
but he taught us, you, Austin, Andrew, Jordan, Alex, and Jacob a way to move beyond the damnation YOU (we) put OURSELVES in!
How can inviting PURE LOVE into your lives be anything but a blessing?
Oh and BTW, This is NOT religious teachings... for all of you who think you are 'atheist' !!
These are just cold, hard, eternal facts! ( I did not invent them)
Take away ALL religion on the Planet and these facts will still exist. Think about that for a moment.
That is why many of you Hollers refuse to study this...because you are AFRAID to find out that it is TRUE!!
Then, you would be held accountable to live up to what you KNOW! eh, you still are, even if you refuse to acknowledge these truths.
Trust me..the blessings FAR outweigh the small amount of persecution you 'might' receive for being a GOOD PERSON!!
(Like some of you have said or thought..."Who wants to be a good person anyway? Look what it got my mom. It is sooooo overrated" lol) just a little humor.
At this time of closing this letter and the 2018 year full of fun and memorable Holidays...
I pray and have always prayed, that you will find LOVE, PEACE and CHRIST (pure love ♥) in these 'Holy' Days. (holidays).
You Holler boys are so smart and intellectual....don't let that intelligence, pride, (or ego) trip you up, so much so, that you can NOT find your Spiritual intelligence and light of Christ within, which goes on for Eternity...
NOT just these few short years on this planet!!
"Merry Christmas" to all of you, my dearly held sons.
I am so sorry that I can't express this warm feeling in person, but inadequately on paper/screen. Please do something to change this?
I love you (and your dad) very much. Much to your surprise or lack to understand. No matter what you may believe.
(The way GOD loves you and him! with no guile. This has always been the case, from the moment I met him and no matter how mad I have been at him and you for doing the deceitful and wicked things to a good and loving mother. Even when he (or you do through his encouragement) did or do intentionally hurt me and my precious relationship with my sons or all of you spiritually!)
I tell you this because during these Holidays its time to dwell on the positive of what we do have,...FORGIVE, as I have done!
I know it is NOT easy, but it IS possible JORDAN, Jacob, Austin, Andrew, and Alex.
And remember these special weeks ahead, and always, that you don't have to 'start' a relationship with me like so many of you believe!
I have always been here! I NEVER left. Remind yourself of this and SEE how true it really is.
Again, just the FACT that I gaven birth and life to you means there IS and ALWAYS WILL BE a relationship there no matter how rich or poor that relationship is. That is determined by YOU.
These FACTS are eternal.
Love, forever, your mother, Mom ♥
I feel that all plants can be used for good or be 'misused'.
However, through EDUCATION you can find the benefits of ALL plants on this beautiful Earth.
Here is one that is worth its weight in Gold, from the sounds of it.
Here is a video that will educate you.
Listen up ....The Testimonials are really GREAT!!
(only available until Wed. Dec. 19th, 2018)
...And ends with KNOWING. One of my favorite songs, sung SO beautifully, by 3 beautiful young women!
Sung in Provo, Utah (where I grew up)
Brings tears to my eyes and chills down my spine, every time....
Austin Holler ...
Are you MORE??
than just the sum of every High, and every Low?
Who ARE YOU??
~ Throw me away in your minds and hearts...but don't throw away YOUR Salvation!!
♥ You are loved by the Spiritual world 'MORE' than what myself, or your father Bernd, or your companion, or a girlfriend could EVER LOVE you ♥ Remember....
For many years....14 to be exact....my children have been unable to receive MOST of their gifts from their loving mother, me. These Christmas's, birthday's, etc. are not allowed by their father to reach them. A few have slipped in, from time to time, but the majority of them, not. This is a sad affair.
Oh I've tried! However, because they come from 'ME', my ex will not allow my sons to know and feel how deeply LOVED they are by someone who thinks about them, cares about them, and really eternally loves them from the depths of her soul.
However, now that they are adults, it is NOW their choice to receive these blessings...if they so desire.
Not so much 'FROM me', but from the Universe who wants to bless them. When I am inspired...I act upon this.
Then it is up to them.
They are now free to accept or reject them. It makes their father pleased to see them 'reject' them (me in their eyes) and to see them carry on his bitter, and callous heart.
If only they knew that they were NEVER rejected or disrespected. Not even their father, Bernd. Only his worldly ways, his worldly goals and the demons he entertained(s).
Goals should be 'eternal', not worldly. They, personally, have always been loved. If only they knew.
They refuse to believe that GOD, the Universe, their Spiritual relatives like Oma and Opa Holler, Oma and Opa Smith and the many Hatch ancestors really DO exist, and watch over them, and WANT to bless them. Even their brother Michael !
Please, Pray that at this special time of year...they will Let Go of their fears and KNOW that they are LOVED!!
As you remember, on the last Photo Album page, we were in Maui, Hawaii with baby Alexander. He was nursing so we really had to bring him with us on this trip.
It was nice to have a break from our other boys...but also special that we could spend some fun time with our newest baby boy, Alexander.
Here we are on the beach playing in the water. Also, while sight-seeing we went to some falls and waded in the water with Alex. In one photo you see Bernd cutting open some yummy fruit called Durian. The sweet flesh is like Vanilla pudding. What a great treat! I also see that I must have found an extra professional photo of little Jordan, floating around the house, and made sure that I glued it into this album. My little love ♥
Then the last one is of darling Jacob and baby Alexander. Jacob is missing one of his front teeth and grinning. This is so funny. I love how tiny Alexander sits in this big high chair with his big beautiful eyes.
On the back side of this page, I had gone to Walmart portrait studio in St. George, and got my boys some professional photos taken. They had Pokemon set and my boys loved this new popular Character and so we had them taken with this backdrop. Notice Jacob and Jordan have Pokemon t-shirts to match.
Below this, you see little Andrew showing us his yummy Avocado. He loved them, and so did the whole family. YUM. What a cutie.
The last photo is of my 3 youngest sons and we are out for a walk in the lovely weather in St. George, Utah. The air is clean, the scenery is so beautiful and I was so happy being the best Mommy ever, to the most adorable, smart little angels anyone could ever dream of having!!
Close ups below...
My high school girlfriend, Kirsten, just made a post on Facebook, letting others know that she just went through passing a stone! OUCH!!
This is what she said....
"Since Saturday, been trying to pass a kidney stone. Never had to go through this before......NEVER WANT TO DO THIS, EVER AGAIN!!!!"
This process can be VERY painful, but it CAN be avoided!!
Many do NOT know this wonderful news.
Here, below, is a easy cleanse, that I have done personally, and it works. It has been around for over 2000 years! Safe, easy and beneficial !!!
A few days later she posted this ...
Kidney stones have passed!! NEVER WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN!!!
Let's learn what she could have done, for an ounce of prevention...
Lets NOT go through what she, Kirsten, and MANY people go through many times, or at least once in their lifetime.
Even my mom went through this painful problem, later in her life.
Here, below, is a Natural remedy that I have personally used! And it not only worked, but cleared my skin to baby soft. At the time I did it...I had only 'flakes' floating in the toilet. But it did make my skin so clear and it was easy and worth it!!
Please do this cleanse once or twice, AT THE VERY LEAST in your life time. (or more, if needed)
The suggested parasite herbs in this cleanse are optional.
The citrus juice, olive oil, Epsom salts, and timing are NOT optional.
This link below is the original recipe from Dr. Clark.
I will also post this recipe in written form, in case these links are ever taken down.
DR. CLARK PURITY LIVER & GALLBLADDER CLEANSE DIRECTIONS
Most people know they have a gallbladder but don't really understand what it does day in and day out. Here you will learn the function of the gallbladder, why so many people have them removed, and what you can do to flush this vital organ to maintain a high level of health and wellness.
The gallbladder is a small pear-shaped organ that lives directly under the liver. Its primary function is to collect and concentrate the bile that the body uses to digest fats. Problems associated with a low functioning gallbladder include:
We like this Gallbladder Flush from Dr. Hulda Clark's website:
On the morning of the flush, eat a no-fat breakfast and lunch such as cooked cereal, fruit, fruit juice, bread, and preserves or honey (no butter or milk). This allows the bile to build up and develop pressure in the liver. Higher pressure pushes out more stones. Limit the amount you eat to the minimum you can get by on. You will get more stones. The earlier you stop eating, the better your results should be. In fact, stopping fat and protein the night before gets even better results.
2:00 PM. Do not eat or drink after 2 o'clock. If you break this rule, you could feel quite ill later. Get your Epsom salts ready. Mix 4 tablespoons in 3 cups of water and pour this into a jar. This makes four servings, ¾ cup each. Set the jar in the refrigerator to get ice cold (this is for convenience and taste only).
6:00 PM. Drink one serving (¾ cup) of the ice cold Epsom salts. You may also drink a few mouthfuls of water afterward or rinse your mouth. Get the olive oil and grapefruit out to warm up.
8:00 PM. Repeat by drinking another ¾ cup of Epsom salts. You haven't eaten since two o'clock, but you won't feel hungry. Get your bedtime chores done. The timing is critical for success.
9:45 PM. Pour ½ cup (measured) olive oil into a pint jar. Squeeze the grapefruit by hand into the measuring cup. Remove pulp with a fork. You should have at least ½ cup. You may use lemons instead of grapefruit. Add this to the olive oil. Also, add Black Walnut Tincture. Close the jar tightly with the lid and shake hard until watery (only fresh citrus juice does this).
Now visit the bathroom one or more times, even if it makes you late for your ten o'clock drink. Don't be more than 15 minutes late. You will get fewer stones.
10:00 PM. Drink the potion you have mixed. Take 4 ornithine capsules with the first sips to make sure you will sleep through the night. Take 8 if you already suffer from insomnia. Drinking through a large plastic straw helps it go down easier. Take it all to your bedside if you want, but drink it standing up. Get it down within 5 minutes (fifteen minutes for very elderly or weak persons).
Lie down immediately.
You might fail to get stones out if you don't. The sooner you lie down, the more stones you will get out. Be ready for bed ahead of time. Don't clean up the kitchen. As soon as the drink is down, walk to your bed and lie down flat on your back with your head up high on the pillow. Try to think about what is happening in the liver. Try to keep perfectly still for at least 20 minutes. You may feel a train of stones traveling along the bile ducts like marbles. There is no pain because the bile duct valves are open (thank you Epsom salts!). Go to sleep as you may fail to get stones out if you don't.
Next morning upon awakening, take your third dose of Epsom salts. If you have indigestion or nausea, wait until it is gone before drinking the Epsom salts. You may go back to bed. Don't take this potion before 6:00 am.
Two hours later, take your fourth (the last) dose of Epsom salts. You may go back to bed again.
After 2 more hours, you may eat. Start with fruit juice. Half an hour later eat fruit. One hour later you may eat regular food but keep it light. By supper, you should feel recovered.
Alternative Schedule l: Omit the first Epsom salts dose at 6 p.m. Take only one dose, waiting until 8 p.m. Change nothing else. Many people still get stones with one less dose. If you do not, do the full course next time.
Alternative Schedule 2: After taking the first dose of Epsom salts in the morning, wait two hours and take a second dose of the oil mixture and go back to bed. After 4 more hours take another dose of Epsom salts. This schedule can increase the number of stones you remove.
How well did you do?
Expect diarrhea in the morning. Use a flashlight to look for gallstones in the toilet with the bowel movement. Look for the green kind since this is proof that they are genuine gallstones, not food residue. Only bile from the liver is pea green. The bowel movement sinks but gallstones float because of the cholesterol inside. Count them all roughly, whether tan or green. You will need to total 2000 stones before the liver is clean enough to rid you of allergies, bursitis, or upper back pain permanently. The first cleanse may rid you of them for a few days, but as the stones from the rear travel forward, they give you the same symptoms again. You may repeat at two-week intervals. Never cleanse when you are [acutely] ill.
Sometimes the bile ducts are full of cholesterol crystals that did not form into round stones. They appear as a “chaff” floating on top of the toilet bowl water. It may be tan colored, harboring millions of tiny white crystals. Cleansing this chaff is just as important as purging stones.
How safe is the liver cleanse?
It is very safe. My opinion is based on over 500 cases, including many persons in their seventies and eighties. None went to the hospital; none even reported pain. However, it can make you feel sick for one or two days afterward, although, in every one of these cases, the maintenance parasite program had been neglected. This is why the instructions direct you to complete the parasite and kidney cleanse programs first.
If you do change these recipes, you might expect problems. The liver is quite sensitive to details. If you plan to make changes, be sure to seek the help of a therapist.
This procedure contradicts many modern medical viewpoints. Gallstones are thought to be formed in the gallbladder, not the liver. They are believed to be few, not thousands. They are not linked to pains other than gallbladder attacks. It is easy to understand why this is thought: by the time you have acute pain attacks, some stones in the gallbladder are big enough and sufficiently calcified to see on X-ray, and have caused inflammation there. When the gallbladder is removed, the acute attacks are gone, but bursitis and other pains and digestive problems remain.
The truth is self-evident. People who have had their gallbladder surgically removed still get plenty of green, bile-coated stones, and anyone who cares to dissect their stones can see that the concentric circles and crystals of cholesterol match textbook pictures of “gallstones” exactly.
Gallbladder flush taken from Dr. Hulda Clark's website.
~Mother of 6 Handsome Sons.
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