Children, as your mother, I strongly believe that it is time to set yourselves FREE.

What does this mean?

Have you ever given it any thought that perhaps you have put yourself in bondage?  Thinking that by not having any contact with me, you have set yourselves  'free' ?

Don't you think that both your dad and I have always tried to control your most inner thoughts, yet, actually causing you to have 'bondage'?  Rather than freedom?

I mean think about it, just about every time I hear or see your life activities, they seem to be as if you were having the freedom that I have been having.  You all seem to be having this wondrous freedom from God and the world itself, happy go lucky I would call it.

But yet, your persona shows quit the opposite.  You seemed to have always blamed me for not having 'this', not having had 'that', got cheated out of a mother, therefore having been cheated out of life itself.

How sweet it is, to be able to blame, 'me' for 'your' Hell, or you could also call it, your bondage.

WHY am I writing you this??

I think it's mostly because I feel it's TIME, for all of you, to be free and let yourselves Go.

What does that mean?

How do you really know that your Dad's perception about me is 'true and correct'?  
I mean think about it, if I were soooo horridly terrible and was to blame for YOU not having had a Mother, than why is it the complete opposite for your little brother Alexander?

Why is his world full of love, attention, and most of all a world of 'freedom' to choose and be Happy with a righteous loving Mother such as myself?

What makes 'you' right?  and him wrong?

I think it is time that YOU find out for yourselves.
 Neither your dad Bernd nor your mom Lisa are in the 'right or wrong'. . . .we're just 'Your Parents' and I know (as well as so do you) that it is TIME to 
'get out of bondage'.

Love your guys  ♥♥♥

My children and I LOVED Halloween and the autumn season and it's activities.

Here is my attempt at carving a few pumpkins so far.

I used a drill.  It was fun and easy.  Alex helped a little.

I also made some delicious pumpkin muffins.  They too were so easy and super yummy!

Just take a box of cake mix, and add a can of Pumpkin.  Stir, put in muffin cake cups and cook for 20-25 mins on 350* in the oven.    EASY.

I even made a little caramel sauce to go with some of them.    Moist, and delicious!!

Come on over to have one!

There were lots of FIRES in Colorado at the beginning of Summer.  NOW, there are lots of rains and FLOODS!!

Yikes, I pray that my boys are safe, especially since over 1200 people are missing!

Today was Alexander's 14th Birthday!  Yay!

Yesterday we took him Bowling and to the Arcade where we got Pizza, drinks, snacks, and played lots of games.

One video game even landed him the JACKPOT where he won a 1,000 tickets.  We had an awesome time.  He is one LUCKY boy!!

Then for his Birthday today I made him a special breakfast, took him shopping for new Shoes, school items, to the Movies.  Then we bought Pizza, a Birthday cake, Ice Cream, Balloons etc. and came home to have a special dinner and sing ♫ "Happy Birthday"♫ to him, with family.

He got to open his presents and blow out his candles.  We had a great time.

He really loved his remote control Helicopter toy.

He is now 14 on the 14th!   FUN.

May he have many more wonderful years with his loving mom (me) and his loving Step-dad (Rudy) and the Hatch family.   

I am so thankful to God for at least one of my boys to celebrate their birth day with.  Only wish his brothers could have been here and part of this special day. ♪

  (I will post more pics of today when I get them downloaded on another day in the future)

Last night, I had the most amazing dream about 2 of my boys!  The dream ended up focusing mainly on just one of them in the end.

I woke up feeling so much tender love and compassion for the dear son that I was hugging so tightly last night during this dream.

Poor thing, he is SO super sensitive and needs so much love, I woke up feeling so inadequte.

I woke up feeling a deep desire and so heartfeltly wishing that I could have had more opportunities in life to have 'comforted' and 'tenderly loved' this boy, even MORE than what little chances I was given in this life.

Let's just put it this way, I felt deeply sad for this son of mine who missed out on so much love, I felt great joy, yet cried a bit upon waking and thinking about my tender son, and this loved filled and amazing dream.

If you'd like to know who this dream was about, and who the two boys were in this dream, I will tell more in my personal journals here at home.

Happy Day!!

This summer my mom sent me a couple of old photo albums she had around her house.

With her serious stroke I think she felt impressed to 'clean house' and give a lot of her personal stuff away over the next while so that she can not leave this world without her affairs in order.

She is just that way, so organized and thoughtful.

Here is just a sample of some of the photos in one of these albums I received.  Come visit me to see the rest of these fun photos ☺

My mom still has a few other albums to send me, so I expect much MORE!!

These nice pics are from 1990-92 when I lived in Mission Viejo with Austin, Jordan, their dad, relatives and friends.

Jordan was born in this house about 8 months before we moved to Manti Utah.

We all picked up head colds lately.

The best remedies we have found, so far, have been lots of Vitamin C, hot tea, Cayenne Pepper capsules, and lots of water and rest.

Oh ya, another winner is a Tablespoon of Honey and Lemon/ or Lime juice.  This has been great for our cough at night.  If we had a sore throat, we used a Tablespoon of Olive Oil and Salt mix.  This was fabulous too (and all natural).  Of course making sure your intestines are clear and clean is the BEST remedy for clearing all congestion's (mucus) from ones lungs and sinus's.  
But the cough soothers were very nice none the less. 

We are on the mend, but it has taken it's toll on all of us.  Trying to stay warm and happy.

My dear Mother-in-law just came out of surgery for Uterine Cancer.

Scary!

We were praying for her and her successful operation.

All went well in the operation, and we are so happy. 

 Now she really needs our prayers to recover 100%

We LOVE her very much and are grateful for such a lovely Godly woman in our lives.

Thanks for your prayers!