I love Gladioli!
(its hard to see, but these beauties are a deep red)
Family is so important!
We are having a great time visiting with family that we have not seen for ages!
My mom is doing well and getting much better every day thanks to all the prayers.
My Uncle, living nearby, (pictured here) had a series of Strokes also over the past few years and is now bound to a wheel chair so we went to visit him today. He was always so energetic and FUN!
So sad that he is going downhill, but we still are having a lovely time visiting with him, my aunt and my cousins!
This summer is so busy, but we are very thankful!
(Praying that my two boys Jacob and Andrew will join us soon)
Happy 16th Birthday my dear long lost son Andrew Sterling Holler .
I miss you beyond belief !
You do not remember me, or do you?
Regardless, I will never forget you or stop missing you and loving you dearly.
I am so grateful to be your mom and want you to know I am so sorry that I am not able to have you in my life or have the strength to over come those who are keeping us apart.
I so wanted to raise you and show you my personal motherly love throughout your life and the eternities.
Someday I hope you will search me out and come find out how much I care and LOVE you. <3
Love, Your mom
My mom is doing much better after her Serious Stroke thanks to many powerful priesthood blessings and Prayers!
She is now here in Arizona to begin her intensive Speech Therapy, we will be spending a lot of time with her and my sisters family.
We are just so grateful that she is recovering so quickly. Your prayers are working!
Please always look for these signs of a Stroke in those you know and your family members, since timing is of the essence to get them FAST medical attention and medication!
For months now, I've been impressed to create a 'photo page' of my children's father (Bernd Holler) here under one of my Picture Tabs, on this personal website which is dedicated to my children.
I don't know 'why', (or what God's intent is). . . other than I feel it could be so that my children someday see that as much as I was wrongfully treated, cheated on, saddened, angry, hurt, had them brainwashed of many lies about me over many decades and their father has worked (and still works) against me and my success as a loving parent and good person, that to this day I never did 'rip' up my photos of my past which included their father.
I am not a revengeful person, so I suppose this page will hopefully show my children that I always have hope in others, that I have forgiven their dad, and that unlike him who did and does rip up all the photos (or anything resembling me) he had of me, from the day I asked if we could be separated for a time to this day, that instead I have kept mine here at home for them to be able to see and enjoy one day when they ask.
I suppose mainly because (through my hopeful eyes) I do not feel I should see their father as a 'mistake' or bad person - even if he has made many 'poor choices', or makes bad/hurtful/selfish and destructive choices which hurt others throughout his life.
That maybe our short union was just what we both needed to progress in our maturity...and had a purpose to bring these bright children into this world
I believe that if we don't understand this, or learn from this, or accept this as the case and move on, we become damned and will have to go back and do it again and again in the eternities of learning and growing until we learn and grow.
Even if there is no doubt in my mind that their fathers character or choices fits that of a Sociopath which is described as one who will NEVER admit that there is something 'wrong' with their destructive/selfish traits.... having hope gives me a different view of him.... that maybe (hopefully) he just fell into doing 'wrong' or hurtful things out of his bitterness and need to 'win' ...which (through his lack of willingness to see) he can not control.
I believe being a very selfish only child who always got his way and used people for what he wanted verses what was for the 'benefit and good of all', which God wants and Society teaches, that in our case because he had made major mistakes in our marriage and then could not have 'his' way in life afterwards.. that maybe his lesson in life is to someday (hopefully) 'let go of his need to win' and instead allow God to guide his life, like I and most of society does... and treat others the way you would like others to treat you.
(The Golden Rule) Just my thoughts...
Regardless of reasons and explanations, I hope my children see that they are not a mistake and that my marriage with their dad had a 'purpose' and some goodness and that I choose to focus on that!
That hopefully my progression with their dad in my early life was a good thing for both of us to be able to bring them into this world and hopefully they will learn to bring selfless 'good' to many people in their lives.
Either way, feel free to go to the tab above to find this page of photos, OR just click on this link below, to get to this new added photo page.
(Note: I will be adding more and more photos of my children's father to this page throughout the years as I find them, or run across them and have time to download them..
. . . .ENJOY my Holler boys)
My dad's brother is named Roy Hatch.
Uncle Roy is 87 years old, but he still moves and acts like a 70 year old!
He is kind and intelligent and has lived in Utah all his life.
He and his wife are important people in their community but recently I learned something even new about him.
When he was young, he was in the Marine Corps. for a few years during WWII. Upon returning he was photographed on the Battleship Missouri with the famous Captain Nimitz. On September 2, Nimitz was aboard the battleship USS Missouri as part of the Allied delegation to receive the Japanese surrender. The second Allied leader to sign the Instrument of Surrender after MacArthur, Nimitz signed as the representative of the United States.
Nimitz signed for the United States when Japan formally surrendered on board the Missouri in Tokyo Bay. On 5 October 1945, which had been officially designated as "Nimitz Day" in Washington, D.C., Admiral Nimitz was personally presented a Gold Star for the third award of the Distinguished Service Medal by the President of the United States "for exceptionally meritorious service as Commander in Chief, U.S. Pacific Fleet and Pacific Ocean Areas, from June 1944 to August 1945."
This Photo below is taken one year after the signing of surrender. Captain Nimitz is pictured right above the gold seal plaque which in on the floor of the ship below his podium. My Uncle Roy is the one on the left with an 'x' marked in the picture above his head (so you can find him) in this picture.
While my aunt Elaine (my dad's sister) worked in Washington DC she was able to get his picture autographed for my Uncle (her brother).
Pretty cool huh?
Last month thousands descended into the valley in Manti, Utah this summer to watch the famous Mormon Miracle Pageant every year!
This year I decided to take my husband Rudy to this awesome play.
It is held in Manti, Utah where my sons Micheal, Jacob and Andrew Holler were born.
Micheal is buried just below the hill of this gorgeous Temple you see here.
We went to go visit Michael's graveside the next day.
My Uncle Roy lives here so he had us stay at his house for a few days while we watched the play and toured the area.
I stopped in at the house (4 blocks from the Temple) which I had lived in and remodeled back in 1993-1997 to visit the family who bought my house. They are old friends of mine. We had fun reminiscing. We got the tour of my old house which they have remodeled even more. It is so lovely.
I got to see the old Jacuzzi house barn where I gave birth to Jacob and Andrew. Their family has remodeled it into an office. (see pic below)
The play was fantastic and my husband Rudy LOVED it.
There were so many wonderful kind, loving, good people there and the weather was perfect along with the gorgeous views and scenery!
Good Times !
I hope my children will someday come to see this awesome pageant at the same time they come to see their birth place!
When my dad was 17 and nearly out of High School, he joined the Air Force ROTC.
He did his first two years taking general classes of all kinds, like Meteorology.
He then went on a LDS mission to France for two years, which help him in learning and majoring in the French language.
Between his Jr. and Senior year he tried out for the Aviation dept. at Hill Air Field, but found that because his vision was 40/20 that he did not qualify, but instead qualified for the Navigators training (which is the desk behind the cockpit).
He graduated as an Honored Graduate (only 4 at that time) and was at the top of his class.
Towards the end of his training he found that they had no openings for Navigators anyways, and because he had majored 1st in Language Intelligence and 2nd in Education Specialist he was given the opportunity to be the Senior Editor/Public affairs officer at the Detachment News, which got him out of any 'drills or marching'. This gave him the opportunity to decline 'regular' duty and instead he choose to only be a 'reserves officer'.
He had earned the Woodrow Wilson fellowship scholarship which paid all of his tuition fees and many books and living, (full ride).
They gave him a deferment to not go on active duty, but to instead go to UC Berkeley CA. for 1 year studying French Lit. getting a Masters, and later got an endorsement from the LDS Church to become a Chaplin for the LDS faith serving in this capacity in the Air Force. This bumped him up from 2nd Lieutenant to 1st Lieutenant.
He left active duty as a Captain and later in the reserves became a Major, and ended as a Lieutenant Colonel before becoming inactive.
I am proud of my dad, and I love how he didn't make it a total career out of the armed forces, (he likes this too) but he instead became an Honored man, while still raising a large successful family, and doing things he loves like, Real Estate, Construction building and Investments.
He taught French at BYU University when he was first married, and served as an LDS Bishop, while I was very young, and then did Real Estate Investments the rest of his life, which included owning his own large Real Estate Company! , with employees etc. and becoming a 'Real Estate Broker' the rest of his life. He still managers his dozens of properties, all over the State of Utah, today.
Although we have had our differences from time to time, I can't help but focus on all his positives.
Though doing this, I found that LOVE is what matters in life, and through my kindness towards my father... no matter what his choices in life were or are, that I become, and am, a much bigger and better 'lovely person' for showing that RESPECT and love and kindness toward my parent, no matter what.....and I am the one who ends up benefiting, by having an awesome person in my life for what good strengths my father does have!!
Again, recently he went to the UTAH SUMMER GAMES, just this last weekend, for a second time this year, for some more events and AGAIN he took home WINNING MEDALS! He brings home Gold, Silver and Bronze metals often!!
This time around, he won 2 SILVER MEDALS and 1 BRONZE MEDAL in Track and Field. (he never ceases to amaze me!)
So, guess what??
I think my dad is 'the Tops' !! ♥
HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY AUSTIN! (and Happy 4th of July)
My oldest son, first born, was born this beautiful morning in CA. at home, 24 years ago. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday....since time can go by so fast!
I sent him 2 Birthday cards with money in them. One to Hawaii and one to Colorado since I am not sure where he is living now...I think Colorado. I hope he gets them.
Today is going to be FULL of fun activities, so it was be an awesome day! Going to spend it with LOTS of family, so it should be wonderful...it would only be better if my boys were here with us to celebrate! Naturally we MISS them!
"Have an awesome and safe holiday boys!... you may think that you are ONLY your dad's little German soldiers, but remember, you will always be half patriotic 'English' Americans from your mothers's side.... even when you don't remember.
Have a great patriotic day and remember your GREAT heritage from your Mother's side♥! "
Just noticed that my son Jacob 'blocked' his google pic and blog so that his brother Alex and I can't see him any longer, now that he realized that we found him online....I thought he would be different, but I guess he is just as bitter as his dad and brothers....even though he wrote that he was different, had forgiven his parents for whatever, and wouldn't judge others without knowing their whole story ....sad.
(I wonder if my ex put him up to it??... Still... )
— feeling sad.
Going through old files and boxes recently, I've run into a lot of my old Journals / files on my children etc. from the past.
These photos below (if I can post them) are some documents I found in Jordan's box of his important documents, I have on him, and are saving if he needs them later in life.
When he was younger, I needed to revise his birth certificate with his father, and so this letter was attached to the application form which I had filed out at the time and sent to Jordan's dad, my ex, for him to do his part of the form and send back to me.
He had been an absent parent for a long time (as you will read) and would not participate no matter how much we kindly pleaded with him. This letter is just one of my many attempts to have him co-parent and co-operate in being civil with one another.
For a larger image ( a legible file), I posted these 3 pages to my ex's photo page which is under the 'More Pictures Album' tab, if interested.
Andrews art. 1st grade. It says "My favorite book is Clifford the small red puppy, it is fun." I have more of these at home here. Adorable.
I just found 4-5 cute art papers that my son Andrew drew and wrote while in 1st grade. He was very smart and excelled in this grade.
I just thought I would post this cute image of how innocent and cute Andrew and my boys used to be.
~Mother of 6 Handsome Sons.
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